Something like love... Though I don't believe in love...

Not so long ago... Well, to be more exact, m... 6 years ago I madly fell in love with a boy... I can say, I′ll be right to say, It wasn′t love at first sight as many people think it to be romantic, I can′t say so. He was of the same age as me. He was a friend of my brother, not a close friend, only an acquaintance. His name doesn′t have anything to do with my story. so I won′t call it. At that moment when I saw him he was playing basketball at the school-yard in the village. He seemed to be funny and merry, a certain life-lover I can say. He was smiling all the time. I was watching him. hiding my yeys from him and turning back my head. I flushed as he was passing me. He looked at me, I felt something in my heart. It sank heavily... I was happy for the time being. Then my friend introduced me to her brother, who was a friend of my lover. But... there was a circumstance, my friend′s brother like me! )) It was funny but not for me, cuz he began to humiliate me, he cried through the whole school-yard about my love to that boy, a basketballer. He heard him, he couldn′t say a word, he put down his head... Then I found out that my lover took an interest in me, or it was only rumours... Now I can′t say. That summer I left the village without learning the whole truth about his feelings. The next summer lasted in usual way. There was nothing impressive. A year apart we began to go out... I wanted to be aside from him cuz I got shy! I don′t know what was coming to him then... I talked so many rubbish that I don′t wanna remember. Now I′m ashamed of my behavior. But at that time it seemed fabulous! I′m really sorry now... But I have nothing to change! He is hanging with a certain girl, I know, he is with the other! But... One my friend said that everything is done for better things. Maybe it′s so, but I still remember him... Here and Now...